I'm afraid
Tue May 06, 2008 at 07:18:32 PM PDT
I just heard Tim Russert giving a very intelligent analysis of how tonight's events will change the conversations the Clinton camp will be having with the superD's starting tomorrow.
His main point was that since there no longer appears to be a realistic path to the nomination, there will be stark suspicion that the only reason she is staying in is to try to destroy Obama.
And Keith is talking about how the discussion of the gas tax was good for O b/c it took the focus off Rev Wright, and a few minutes ago I heard wild cheers as a re-energized Obama told the American people he trusts them to be smart, and just now Tom Brokaw told an anecdote suggesting maybe people are living up to that trust. And I read that even Joe Scabborough says it seems to be over for Hillary. And OH! MY! GOD! now even Pat Buchanan is talking like she has no case for staying in the race.
I am very afraid.
I'm afraid I'm going to wake up and this is all going to have happened just in my imagination.
This is the night we've been waiting for, hoping for since the beginning of March. It's a night like so many we experienced in Jan & Feb -- back when, to paraphrase a Switchfoot song, "the world was younger and we had everything to lose."
But then came March and April, and we lost so much. I have sat in powerless frustration for two months watching filth win, watching it surge and re-surge, over and over, long past the date when I was sure it MUST be dead and buried this time. Been suffering a little bit of a Battered Voter Syndrome, beginning to believe that this was how it would ever be, that there was no escape.
I kept coming back here to DKos for sanity, and on most days was able to get my forebrain in control over my hindbrain and keep the faith, keep believing that rationality still had a good chance everywhere except the MSM and Hillaryland. Thanks to all of you, I haven't given in to despair.
But it sure was beginning to color my world.
All that time, the hope of this night was what kept me going. I kept hoping it would happen "at the next primary, no the next one, well no but we still have some more left." We were running out of chances. In fact, really this was the last chance. I expect a huge Obama win in Oregon, but if tonight had gone like the last few primary nights, I don't know that Oregon would have been enough. Tonight really HAD to happen the way it's happening, or the desperation might have permanently overtaken the joy for me in this primary season, and we might have truly lost it all.
[BTW, left out Harold Ford in my earlier list. He too is now talking like Clinton has basically no hope, and even sounding like he believes in Barack.]
What I am hearing and seeing tonight, after the long and weary drought, feels like Christmas and birthday and the last day of school and the Fourth of July all wrapped up in one.
I just hope I'm not dreaming.
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